Long Time No Blog

It has been a few weeks since I have had time to sit and write.  I haven’t been avoiding writing, or ignoring writing, or discarding writing.  I have, instead been taken over by life.

Over fall break, my life felt completely out of control. Anyone who knows anything about me knows I MUST schedule every second of my life.  I follow the plan, and rarely deviate from the plan.  Yes, I know this is a problem, and yes I am working on it. Apparently I wasn’t working on it hard enough because God decided to step in. Our water quit working….our heat then went out of commission, and then a health crisis hit our family. Talk about schedule being blown.  I LOST IT.  I was not very nice.  I said things I shouldn’t have said, and I got angrier than I should have been.  I have since cried it out, prayed it out, talked it out, and am working on growing.

I say all of that to say this.  The world expects us to be perfect.  I don’t care if you are a single woman, a single man, a married person, what job you have, or if you are a parent or not.  The world expects perfection.  I mean, after all, did you see those Facebook posts, those Instagram photos, and those tweets?  Everyone is perfect except for me. We have all felt this way.  Well, I have news for you….

THE WORLD IS NOT PERFECT, PEOPLE ARE NOT PERFECT, AND YOU ARE NOT PERFECT!  And neither am I.

It’s okay to fall apart.  It’s okay to get angry.  It’s okay to be disappointed.  The important thing is that you learn, you grow, you push through it, your pick yourself up, you ask God for strength, and you get moving.

Please also remember this.  No one has the right to tell you to snap out of something. Life hits different people in different ways for different lengths of time.  It may take a day, a month, or a year to feel okay.  The important part is the eventually being okay. Don’t stay stuck.  Don’t stay lonely. Call someone you trust.  Cry to them.  Scream, yell, punch a pillow!  It’s okay. Just don’t stay there.

So what does the picture below have to do with my blog post?  That mom in the picture.  That’s me.  My five year old is kissing my belly, already fully in love with his baby sister.  The mommy attached to that belly is scared to death.  The daddy in that picture is trying to figure out how to handle that mommy and all of her emotions.  I really didn’t know if I could be a mom of two.  Everyone on Facebook has it together!  How in the world am I going to have it together? Then it happened…that little girl came into this world. I then had a choice to make. Post all the happy stuff.  Talk about the good stuff only.  Put on this mask of perfection.  OR I could be completely real and show both the good and the bad; the perfect and the imperfect; the accomplishments and the failures.  So I chose to be real.

That is also where this blog came from.  I wanted a place to write to those who need to hear the truth.  I wanted a place where it was okay to be real.  You may agree with me.  You may disagree with me.  The point is, you are you…and that is EXACTLY who you are supposed to be.